My fiancé left me during isolation and I tell you my whole story
2020-07-18 23:21:00
TiranaPost
Samuel and I met three years ago on Tinder, then we discovered we also had mutual friends. It sounds like a cliché, but it was actually a love at first sight. We had a lot of chemistry. We became inseparable. Even the marriage proposal made it very romantic. He knelt down a bridge and chose my grandfather’s town, as I had a strong connection to him and how much he was separated from life.
In January and February we visited several venues to conduct our wedding. He was very enthusiastic. We also made the friends list. We also bought the house together. We also chose bridesmaids and groom companions. Then the pandemic broke out and we were isolated. Staying together all the time, locked in the house and of course with added stress, we started debating. One day I asked him to go to sleep with his sister until we calmed down, but he never came home again.
He told me he needed space and wanted to understand himself better.
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not even a month knocked on the door and I thought we would now fix everything and get back to normal, but no. Samuel told me that we could never make each other happy, at least not as much as we should, so we had to separate. It was so cold.
Anyway he entered the house and because the isolation continued, we would stay together. I hoped again that staying together would improve our relationship. Maybe he would change his mind by staying close. I went into the kitchen, he went out, I stayed in the living room, he went to the garden. We slept in separate rooms, fixed as two strangers. And this strange living of ours did not last more than two days.
I'm ashamed to admit it, but I did. I synchronized his iPad on social media accounts and discovered things I did not like. He was talking to other girls while standing in the garden. I read them from the iPad. I also found out that during the month he stayed with his sister he had gone out on dates with three girls and even spent the night with one of them.
I panicked and got hurt. I burst into tears and realized it was over. I wanted no excuse, so I got up and packed everything. I pulled them out the door. I no longer wanted him at home. I found a moment when he was not there to do everything. He came, picked them up at the door, and never returned. I have not seen him since mid-May.
From that day on I am suffering from anxiety and mental health disorders. He deleted all the photos with me from social networks, removed me from the list of friends, blocked me and my family. I still have the engagement ring and I do not know what to do. Due to the coronavirus he could not stay close to family and friends to be comforted.
I found opportunities inside the house to distract the mind from sadness. I arranged the garden. Attitude only has its benefits.
I talk to Samuel via email because we are talking about the house we have together.
There are nights when I feel so bad that I call my friends and disturb them. I can not sleep, but I hope that time, it will fix everything.
* Source Metro
